Sang Pemuja Baru

Kali ini bukan lagi tentang keputusasaan yang menyayat,,,,
kali ini berubah menjadi sebuah bumerang kemunafikan yang ku lempar untuk kehidupanku....

Aku berusaha menutupi betapa kesempurnaan cinta membuatku tertekan, dengan bayangan cinta yang arogan mengelabuiku.......

Kemaren, jujur adalah aku
Hari ini, munafik adalah jatiku...

Berusaha menghadirkan sosok baru,
Menggantikan pujangga yang terkoyak
Berusaha mengabaikan hati.... yang meronta memohon untuk terkabul.,,,

Hari ini sesosok pemuja baru menghampiri....
Tapi kali ini aku dengan bumerang kemunafikan mencoba mengelabui hatiku membuka mata untuk pemuja baru ....
Mataku mampu terbuka, ingatanku mampu menjelma
Tapi kebohongan menutupi malu ku tentang hati yang tak bisa berganti masih berjaya.....

..........a JERK...............

" Tidakkah aku ingin melanjutkan hidup "

entah bagaimana membalasnya,,,
aku hanya ingin berteriak

" Aku ingin lanjutkan hidupku, Karena itu aku ingin kamu,aku tau aku tak bisa tanpamu "
mungkin terdengar cengeng tapi inilah hatiku,,,

Menyadari betapa aku tak begitu berarti,

Menyadari aku hanya kerikil kecil diperjalanan hidupmu yang disaat kau suka bisa kau lempar bahkan kau tendang sejauh yang kau mau,,,,

Menyadari aku yang bersosok perempuan kecil dengan pisau keputusasaan di kedua tangannya...

Menyadari bahwa aku hanya tumpukan asap kumal
dirangkaian awan putih kisahmu...

Apa aku harus terhenti sampai disini??
Apa kisah yang ku rangkai dalam kesederhanaan imajiku harus terhenti??

" Aku sesosok perempuan kecil dengan pisau keputusasaan ditangannya "

STUPID IN LOVE - RIHANNA

Mmm, stupid in love, oh
Stupid in love, hmm

Let me tell you something,
Never have I ever been a size 10 in my whole life
I left the engine running, I just can't see,
What you would do if I, gave you a chance to make things right.

So I made it even though Katie told me that this would be nothing but a waste of time, and she was right.
Hmm, don't understand it but on your hands,
Just knew that you're sister repeated you're trying to tell me lies and I just don't know why.

Oh, this is stupid, i'm not stupid
Don't talk to me like i'm stupid
I still love you but I just can't do this
I may be dumb but i'm not stupid

My new nickname is “you idiot” (such an idiot)
Hmm, that's what my friends are calling me when they see me and ringing to my phone, they're telling me let go, he is not the one.
I thought I saw your potential,
Guess that's what made me dumb.
He don't want it, like you want it, screaming and cheating, oh girl why do you waste your time?
You know he ain't right. You telling me this, I don't wanna listen.
But oh, ya sis repeated you're trying to tell me lies and I just don't know why.

This is stupid, i'm not stupid
Don't talk to me like i'm stupid
I still love you but I just can't do this
I may be dumb but i'm not stupid

Tryna' make this work
But you act like a jerk
Silly of me to keep holdin' on
But the dumb's cap is off
You don't know what you've lost
And you wore all your lies till i'm gone, gone, gone...
But I was the one, which one of us is really gone
No, no, no, i'm not stupid in love

This is stupid, i'm not stupid
Don't talk to me like i'm stupid
I still love you but I just can't do this
I may be dumb but i'm not stupid


I may be dumb but i'm not stupid in love

LAST TRAIN HOME - RYAN STAR

You haven't changed.
Stand in the light,
I need to see you,
uncover my eyes.
The tears coming down,
making lines on your face.
One for each year,
now that you've been away.
We were only kids,
we ran like water.
Your dad said,
stay away from my daughter.
The sun was coming down when I said,
can't you just believe?
And if you wait for me,
I'll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.
And if you wait for me,
I'll be your voice when you don't know what to say.
I'll be your shelter,
I'll be your fate.
I'll be forever, wait for me.
I'll be the last train,
I'll be the last train home.
You were a storm,
it blew us away.
I wouldn't leave you,
but you couldn't stay.
We were only kids,
we ran like water.
Your dad said,
stay away from my daughter.
The sun was coming down when I said,
can't you just believe?
And if you wait for me,
I'll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.
And if you wait for me,
I'll be your voice when you don't know what to say.
I'll be your shelter,
I'll be your fate.
I'll be forever, wait for me.
I'll be the last train,
I'll be the last train home.
We were only kids,
we ran like water.
I told your dad,
I love your daughter.
The sun was coming down when I said,
Hallie just believe.
And if you wait for me,
I'll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.
And if you wait for me,
I'll be your voice when you don't know what to say.
I'll be your shelter,
I'll be your fate.
I'll be forever,
wait for me.
I'll be the last train,
I'll be the last train,
Hold on to love,
and wait for me.
I'll be the last train,
I'll be the last train home.
I'll be the last train,
I'll be your last train home.

Beyonce - Halo

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

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